My Muse

My Muse

Wednesday, September 7, 2011


September 22,2000 - September 6,2011 
  What can we say. Excelled in agility, mighty defender and protector.He frightened many people who came to our door.  A healer. No bruises or cuts went unlicked with great care. Once he learned to dive would be our Greg Louganis doing perfect into the pool.  My beloved studio assistant usually leaving covered with paint and my shadow outside the studio. Sophie's little boy and Sammy's best friend. Telepathic. Obeying Sophie's orders to tell me when she wanted her dinner.  When I was tired or sad he would lay his entire body along mine in bed to keep me safe. He loved our nightly game of keep a way in the pool but most of all he loved his best friend Roger as they walked nightly for 2 miles.  Fergus is Roger's Heart dog. 

   Fergus passed yesterday with us by his side as he has been beside us for these short years. The diagnosis was a brain tumor. He had  short remission as we did water exercises with him and brain stimulation by throwing the ball to him so he would catch it or chase it. Letting him figure out how to get out of the pool. One day we waited twenty minutes but he got it. Great cheers were heard!!

   We had expected a miracle and we got it. Maybe not how we wanted, but we got to spend every moment with him. He showed me how to be calm and patient even when my back was in pain from getting him in and out or up or down.  Once he shook himself I knew he was awake and he took off on his own.  He was able to run after Sammy or follow Sam out the door at night to use  the facilities.  Needless to say, Sammy is grieving.

   Brain tumors...silent till they are not but by then it's probably too late.  The first sign was a limp that suddenly went to weakness and a paralysis. Remissions and recurrences.   We chose to do Chinese Medicine rather than MRI's and surgery.    

   Before we went to the vets yesterday I did a print of Fergus paw on a canvas for Roger.  As we drove to the office the sun caught his paw it it was glowing. I used Pthalo blue to do the print and I thought I washed it all off forgetting it's one of the strongest staining colors I could have used.  They'll be no hide and seek games for Fergus on the other side of the Bridge. Sorry buddy, but I'll know when you are here for sure!!!

   We love and miss you good boy!!!  


Gemma said...

You make me cry, Sheila.
I never met Fergus, but I have this great painting with him and the two my kitchen.
I will keep you in my heart Fergus, good journey and say Hello to my beloved black Lab Pia, who went over the bridge in April 2008, and I miss her still a lot.

OtterTail said...

Beautiful tribute in remembrance of Fergus, Sheila. They touch our hearts in so many ways. He was as lucky to have you as you were to have him. My heart is with you.

Lou Belcher said...

I'm thinking of you. I know how hard it is when our best friends run off to the Rainbow Bridge. Your blog post is a wonderful tribute. Take care. I'm sending you kind thoughts.


Rebecca said...

I am so touched by your words, saddened by your loss of Fergus. I have several of your paintings, and love them all. I have my own labs, Pepper 12, and Clivus 14. Hershey lived to 13, Annie to 16. The loss is beyond compare but they pave the way for new members of the family from their most special breed. Blessings to you and your family. Rebecca

Sheila Wedegis said...

Thank you all for your kindness. It's been difficult missing Fergus but happily he interviewed puppies from the Bridge and sent us Ozzie. We adopted him from Labs4Rescue and he is filling our lives with laughter and love.